I really agree with your statement “everyone around me will look like a complete idiot every time you open your mouth”. This is my situation and it’s isolating you may have heard this from many other community members. Although the last statement you said I relate to the core, as dark as it may seem death does seem like an option to stop this suffering as in heaven stuttering has no existence or whatever afterlife you may believe in. It’s truly unfair obviously all troubles should be understood and cared for but I agree that people worry over BS while stutters live like hell. It’s a sad reality we are 1% of the worlds population yet we never wanted this what a shame but all I feel is shame maybe you relate