I've just become numb to the humiliation. Did you ever get that? Unfortunately, it's made me almost psychopathic in a social sense. I now find it tremendously difficult to care about what people think of me. I've been internally humiliated so many times and told me self 'I don't care, it doesn't matter' to move past the humiliation, that eventually I didn't have to tell myself that anymore. Now the 'I am so fucking embarrassed' response to the embarrassment has stopped arising. I now find it difficult to care.