Same problem, same age, stuttering since I can remember. Fear will always be a factor in our lives. I fear talking to people on a daily basis. Not a moment goes by that I wish I could take that "magic pill" to miraculously get rid of this stutter, but I get through it. I don't let it control me. I embrace it. Go to speech therapy. Most colleges have resource centers that can help you find the assistance you need. On another note, what is your major? I found myself always wondering about what majors I could do given my impediment, when I realized that it was right in front of me. Now I am a junior in the Speech and Language Pathology program at my school and I couldn't be happier. I hope this helps, and you can always message me if you need someone to talk to!