This doomeristic thought is Killing

This doomeristic thought is Killing I'm 17 right now and this thought that I'll have to live my entire life not being able to make jokes not being able to tell stories being scared at every moment like when i have to say present in my class or being pitied by everyone everytime i open my mouth and it's only been 5 years since my stutter has become noticeable and it's already so exhausting and I'll have to spend the rest of my life like this too. Honestly I'd kill myself now but i don't wanna die a virgin