commentr/StutterApril 23, 2018

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I'll be honest. I used to. I absolutely hated myself and how I couldn't talk right. People always told me to "just slow down!" without realizing that it happened even when I did talk slow. I would freeze up and get embarrassed. Other kids made fun of me and laughed. I was literally called Stutter for all of middle school by every kid in my grade. It took me almost 20 years, but at 26, I finally said fuck it. I realized that I couldn't change my stutter, and I had to get over the self-loathing because it was eating me alive. I still get self-conscious sometimes, but I just say I have a stutter and power on through with whatever statement I was trying to make. Most people understand and let me continue. Those who do laugh don't for very long when they see I'm not laughing with them, but am staring them down. If any of my clients kids ask me what's wrong, I just say that it's how I talk and I can't change it. Most of them understand and leave it alone. Speaking with confidence tells others that a stutter isn't weakness. It's just a fact of life for the stutterer and needs to be ignored. It took awhile to gain that confidence, but once it took hold, I felt great! It still sucks sometimes, but now it's just another thing to overcome.

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Emotional ExperienceAnticipation & AvoidanceIdentity & DisabilityCoping & Advocacy

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Shame & EmbarrassmentAvoidance & SubstitutionAcceptance & PrideSelf-Advocacy & Boundaries