Well mate, you decide what your life is going to look like. You can dwell over it and live your life waiting for death, or try to change your mindset. I know that's much easier said than done, but considering your state right now, what can you lose? I stutter and after primary school I never experienced any sort of judgement or mocking. Hell, few days ago I had job interview, stuttered through it and got the job on the spot. So really, stop telling yourself that there's no way, that you are doomed and destined to life in depression and loneliness. It's all in your head. Sure, you will probably come across people who will laugh in your face and mock you, but everyone experiences shit like that. There's nothing here anyone can tell you that will change your view on things. But I just want you to consider that there might exist alternative to this and that you can be happy and satisfied with yourself despite your stutter. And sorry to burst your bubble, but you have zero self respect and courage. Someone with those qualities wouldn't allow himself to get restrained and taken back in life by obstacles, he'd be "happy ignorant fool" enjoying his life and fighting towards his dreams. And don't say that it's not that easy or that I can't understand or that I probably don't stutter nearly as hard as you. I have terrible days but I've done what had to be done. Shit was tough a lot of time, especially moving away to different country on my own without knowing anyone but you take the bull by the horns and fight to find your little spot under the sun. I am happy. Why couldn't you be as well? You have what it takes. Take care.