*That was a typo. But this explanation still holds I think.* --- I shouldn't and that's the rub. I am just a person who happens to have a disconnect with the majority of people and the way they speak. I've never felt like this was a problem, and at least as of late, I try to let people that I do interact with (mainly at school) that I don't view it as a problem, so neither should they. But then at the same time, I feel that when I do speak fluently, I get the feeling that I've been lying to myself, and that is when the guilt comes on.