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I'm now 61. Stuttered since I was about 4. 90 percent fluent in some situations and only 10 percent fluent in others, with the odd nightmare thrown in every month of total disfluency. It was like this up to about 40. I think it started to improve very slightly year by year after that. By age 58 I still stuttered to some degree most of the time though. Plenty of secondary symptoms as well (eyes closed, um's and er's etc.), but I was certainly much more fluent than I was in my teens and twenties. 3 years ago my daughter got engaged and I decided in order to make a speech at the wedding (a life long fear of mine) I needed to look at self therapy again. I've made other posts about this so if you are interested look under my profile, I've commented in depth on what has worked for me. Basically though I'm near total fluency now. I go long periods without even a blip (several weeks to a month at least). I realize I'll always be a PWS because I do still do some level of self therapy most days and the times I slip a little is when I've 'coasted' for several days. One huge thing that has gone is the anxiety, I never even realized it but I had a constant low level of anxiety with me all the time. I only noticed it when after about 12 months into this journey it was gone. I'm not saying what I do is good for everyone, we are all different and starting from different places. I could always speak fluently when alone so I knew on some level I was capable of fluent speech. My main message to you younger folks is don't beat yourself up about things, easy to say I know but it really is feeding the problem to do that. Things can change for the better over time. Traditional therapy worked only to a certain point for me, self therapy where I really began to look at the mind is what has 'clicked' for me. Meditation has been a part of my journey as well and is very helpful on the mental health side of things. I wish everybody the best going forward.