Same. Im starting to feel like my brain is taking damage from stuttering. I feel retarded, sometimes when I speak, my brain shuts down and I use wrong words. I block so hard so I cant breath. My fear response is making my speech "autopilot" forced sentences. The past 3 years I have regressed in my speech, and my intelligence? I have repeated dark thoughts of cutting off my own tounge, so I can stay mute in peace..... I cant even speak to my own son sometimes. I hate this.