Feeling of when you know you are going to stutter (partial vent)

Feeling of when you know you are going to stutter (partial vent) Does anyone get that feeling (heart rate increases,stomach tightens) when your about to approach someone at a shop to ask them for something. Generally speaking I've noticed when I'm about to block this occurs I tense up become silent and then wait for the block to be over. Ahhhh life really sucks The worst kind of stuttering is when you are relatively fluent conversationally but collapse into shit when you need to ask for something , prepare for the job interview , that lingering feeling of self defeat , increased heart rate, has been a staple of my life for such a long time. On the brightside I have attempted to do something about it particularly exposing myself to the problem Asking for stuff is such a daunting task. I wonder how people like have managed to reduce anxiety. Its the anxiety which is problematic, now I feel like the anxiety is the main problem , I can speak fine with younger people ( my 5-7 year old siblings ) so the problem must be some ingrained fear deeply rooted somewhere, yes I know stuttering is neurological , however I have a feeling my anxiety / stress during these situations(asking for stuff ) triggers it to be 10x worse. Sometimes you wonder about your future, I am 20, self doubt has been there always , currently in Sydney(domestic) doing an undergrad in Software Engineering at one of the best unis in the country. Recently just got accepted for an internship at (Big 4 consultancy) , I'm starting to feel like it was a fluke ,just got rejected for an entry level call centre role, I applied for another internship ( for the sake of it preparing for interviews is fun I guess lol) but got up to the group presentation where you present your points , and completely buckled, granted this was a virtual interview not really sure how it would of turned out The future in a sense scares me, so much expectation, from parents and family to do well. I am thinking of doing speech therapy but I am not sure, I feel like I have a huge psychological baggage I need to address, for example today I was voice chatting while playing Halo MCC, so I have a push to talk system , I wanted to say something and said it fine when the mic was on mute ( Key was not pressed) however stuttered when the mic was unmuted. I wish I could speak the way I speak when there's no one around. However I don't think I can ever reach that level of fluency. Everytime , someone asks "Hey can you ask someone if they know where the nearest Mac Donald's is ", my heart starts racing feels like my stomach has dropped , Im tired of feeling like that I don't want to feel like that anymore , I don't want to be afraid I want to be better , for my self and for my future. I won't lie and say I haven't improved, my stutter has gotten lower over the years but the underlying anxiety isn't there, my stutter isn't debitillating but fuck the anxiety is definitely crushing So yea that's my vent so sorry for taking your time. Just had to let this out