from my own experience i wouldn’t even use past tense and say that i felt exactly the same, instead i’d use present continuous. something that is honestly starting overwhelm me is that i’ve been going through the exact same situation including even every detail you mentioned virtually every fucking day for a long time now. as much as i try to polish my outer shell, i find myself constantly contemplating why i dont get approached or listened more. perhaps we try too hard, thus it makes us look rather intimidating, or maybe auras actually exist and stuttering hinders our auras ability to attract others. my mentality was considering myself as a walnut and thinking that by making my shell as much appealing as possible i’d get others curious about whats inside, however it never turned out that way. being somewhat satirical about your stuttering as i used to try in presentations and so forth may help a bit but i cant think of anything else. wish i could tell you something that would help but this is the most irritating problem of my personal life and i simply cannot abstract any tangible solution from my own experience. i roughly live like patrick fucking bateman minus the evil deeds, killings and schizophrenia. i stick to my skin care and exercise routine, groom, get my hair cut regularly. i dont wear tailored valentino suits or salvatore ferragamo shoes but dress in a sartorialistically manner, study at the top rated university of my country and shit. i wont keep going to not be bragging. just want to finish by saying that in the end especially in new groups and environments i always find myself feeling the least important just like you mentioned. as you may also know stuttering is a heavy ball and chain my dude and its hard to break free from it. im open for discussions and information exchange about this topic from anyone, feel free.