I have no problem with stuttering, the problem is

I have no problem with stuttering, the problem is when people dont get what i said. Its easy to come to peace w the fact that i dont and might never speak normal coz yk.. am not 12 anymore. But when i stutter to the point they dont get what i said or understand sth other than what i meant or i have to repeat (which btw doesn't make it any better), honestly without beating around the bush I feel like killing myself afterwards.