Which country you are in... If u emmigrated to north america,, there is two assosiations called friends and NSA(national stuttering assosiation)where they held meetings and online conferences, where u can make friends who have similar problem... If u ever think of suice again... Think about people who are mute, blind.. Paralysed... But they are living... We only have far far less problem compared to them... Dont wish to be perfect.. No one is perfect in this world... In future, i think stuttering can be cured with the help of brain implants like neuralink...