I feel your pain. I'm m 45 and dealt with a stutter since my childhood days. I've had good days and bad days. I've had humiliating moments that I've wanted to crawl in a hole and scream and cry, with that said I've also had a lot of proud moments that I didn't let my stutter control my happiness. I also have a 22 year old and 19 yr old son that do NOT stutter. Whatever you're feeling, I've been there I promise and it does get better. I decided years ago I don't care what others think of me and I'm proud of who I am. If I stutter, so be it. We can look for flaws in anyone, no one is perfect!! I hope things get better for you.