postr/StutterSeptember 21, 2024

The worst night of my life

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The worst night of my life I don’t know why I’m posting this. I just need to get it off my chest, I guess. Over a year ago now, I was having a great day. I visited my friend at his new job, and then went downtown with my parents and brother to this Italian spot. Afterwards, we got ice cream and walked around for a while. Later that night, my brother went out to get fast food. My mom told me to call him on the phone to come back. I was trying to help my brother out too, so he wouldn’t get in trouble. But I started stuttering over the phone. So he started imitating the stuttering sound. I told him to stop, and kept trying to explain to him how it was hurting my feelings. He kept talking over me and telling me that I was taking it too personally. He was harsh about it too, and I started crying. He then got mad at me for crying, and began lecturing me over the phone about how I’m so sensitive, and I take things all personal. He wouldn’t let me speak. Later that night, he apologized for making fun of my stuttering. Not for deflecting. A month later, he started making fun of me again, so he didn’t truly feel bad.

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Emotional ExperienceSocial & RelationshipsAnticipation & Avoidance

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Shame & EmbarrassmentFrustration & AngerFamily Support & ConflictExperiential Association