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Cluttering, stuttering, and muttering Does anyone else have a problem with cluttering? I don't think it's as well known as stuttering, but I think I have it on my bad days, especially when I have trouble describing things and I sound like I'm having a stroke. I get frustrated sometimes knowing that I only know how to speak English and yet I'm growing dumber every single day in regards to fully expressing my ideas, so I can't even speak my native language without feeling like a foreigner. I tend to use awkward phrasing in both speech and writing. When I talk to people I usually rearrange whatever I'm about to say in my head to make it sound clearer but it all sounds like garbage when it comes out. I also have a bad habit of mumbling or muttering things under my breath, so I sound like I'm talking to myself. I get frustrated at myself when everyone I talk to ask me what I just said every single time you talk. It's like I'm buffering. I know they mean no harm when they say it but it feels like they're intimidating me, it's irrational that way. I haven't read a book outside of school in a very long time and I think that might be one major cause of me beginning to lose my vocabulary. It gets even worse when I get anxious or angry. I remember hating having to debate with my classmates because in my mind I still felt like I was going to be insulted or intimidated again. I would try to think of a good answer to their argument and my brain would just shut down. Other times I can't even get words out when I'm angry so I grunt and slur my speech. Are there any other late-onset stutterers out there? I'm 16/M and first began to realize I had a stutter when I was about 12 when my parents brought it up. I don't know exactly if I stuttered before that time period. Again, I am sorry if this went off track. I just felt like getting this off my chest.