commentr/StutterAugust 18, 2023

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Hey! So sorry to hear about your situation. I'm a father of an almost 1 year old myself. Stuttering since age 6. Could it be that your husband's low self esteem has grown since the arrival of the baby? I know I certainly felt like I was a failure of a dad for having a stutter, no proper job et cetera. He needs to really let go and realize your child will not care whether or not he stutters. A child will never see him as a failure, never see him a 'lesser' or anything. The problem usually why people stutter more, is because they worry about it more. I used to be the same. I always blamed it on everything going wrong in my social life, work life, everything. Until I decided to STOP CARING what others might think of it. Well, I think I've achieved this for like 90%, as compared to 0% long ago. > Am I being too pushy? What can I do to support him? It all depends on how you both communicate with eachother in general. But in general, forcing a person who is fearful of his stutter, to do things, is not going to make things smoother stutter wise. But at the same time, you made very valid points. Family time is important, and it should never be a drag just simply because of his stuttering problems. It's so unfortunate, truly. I remember, though, feeling very low at some point during the first few months of fatherhood. No job, stuttering, terrible at social things due to my stutter, feeling like a weak example for my baby AND wife. My wife, though, is very supportive of me and my stuttering journey. She doesn't mind it ALL. It's how she knows me, and she knows it's tough. She supports me by making me feel strong even though I might feel weak sometimes due to my talking skills. For a while now I've worked on overcoming my fear for stuttering in front of other people. This has been so amazing, and wish I had done so many years ago. I hardly care for my stutter now. And because of this lessend fear, I don't stutter as much at all anymore. With my wife and at home, I hardly ever stutter anymore. Fear does a lot to a person. Also, now that I think of it, could it also be that he's having little sleep? Too little sleep causes me to be unbalanced quick as well, and I'll catch myself falling into the negative thinking rabit hole as well, and it'll cause me buy into stuttering more, too. When I'm sleep deprived, I want to be alone much as well. That being said, I still love spending time with my little family, but I still love being alone a lot, too. But I definitely try to do all sorts of things still. I love making my little one laugh. They will never think negatively about his stutter. They will love him unconditionally, forever, regardless of his speech. I realize that being a mom is TOUGH AS HECK. I praise my wife every day for being a mom, incl waking up several times at night to feed the baby, because I wouldn't be able to do all the things she does daily. So I 100% understand you would love your husband to help balance things out some more. Being afraid of stuttering is aweful, but it's 100% something he can overcome. I started slowly by opening up to my wife more about, with her being SUPER supportive towards me. Like, SUPER supportive. She's my #1 supporter in this. BUT, you being a mom now, need to think about yourself too. You both need to find balance together. He should definitely not let his stuttering RUIN the amazing gift of being a father. Not sure if I've actually given any solid advice, now that I think of it, but I felt like replying because I felt what you were expressing.

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Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceIdentity & DisabilityParent & Caregiver

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Hiding & ConcealmentStress & Fight/FlightAnxiety & Social JudgmentHope & MotivationIdentity & Self-PerceptionParent Emotions & Guilt