tbh i have no condolences but just relate. im 19 and so far ive been hating it here in uni the fear is immense making friends is something i suck at bcz i ruin jokes i take long to convey my message so ppl js start giving me looks or ask me again n again to repeat myself ive been bullied sm even by my teachers that i dont rlly talk at all except for specific ppl that let me be . ive just learned my lesson that speaking is not safe for me and so i stay silent but this silent suffocates me it sucks it sucks so frkn much this shit is so pointless why am i even here god