commentr/StutterOctober 7, 2015

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I've been married now for forever, but back when I was younger, I was mostly covert, meaning that I went through great lengths to keep my stutter a secret. This basically meant guys were only meeting a very limited section of my personality, and because of this, nothing had any hope of actually working out long-term. They weren't getting the real me, they were just getting the fraction of it I was tactically able to express. When I met my current SO, I made a promise to myself to just stutter, never hide it, and always be myself, and if he didn't like it then I'd just have to move on. He didn't necessarily have a problem with it, and I don't think it's ever turned him off, but it's definitely caused a lot of friction in our relationship, not only in regard to communication difficulties and my inability to completely express myself, but he just isn't a very patient dude and there have been times he's gotten frustrated while waiting for me to get it out. That's always going to be there. Just got to see it through. But none of that is woman-specific. I'm sure a lot of male stutterers mirror those feelings. Don't put so much thought into dividing experiences by gender. We're all dealing with the same bullshit at the end of the day. Every woman has wanted to approach a guy she likes, and every woman stutterer has felt held back by her disfluency in some way or another.

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Identity & DisabilityAnticipation & AvoidanceSocial & Relationships

Subthemes

Authenticity vs. MaskingHiding & ConcealmentDating & Romance