When I was younger and my parents forced me to go church, picked religion without asking me - because kid is more prone to religious propaganda. I was believing the God exists but started to questioning it, if he exists why he allows for such evil stuff like stuttering, cancer, wars, hitler, putin. Then I stopped going to church because I seen hypocrisy of priests, hate toward lgbt, some old school rules that were created and can't explain them besides making fear like you can't enter with open shoulders, poor looking clothes. Anti science stuff, bullshit storied, defending russia. Then O have accepted chance that god don't exist and life is unfair, or he can sit as spectator to see what people do. Accepted that stuttering is not some punishment by god but by shitty parents.