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Looking for advice I use alcohol to combat my stutter, it allows me to speak at around 80 percent fluency which while not perfect is enough for me to freely express my thoughts and feelings.When I first discovered alcohol and found out the effect it had on my stutter I took to it like a fish takes to water, it was a magic drink to me, for the first time in my life I could say almost anything I wanted to at any moment, however I quickly developed a dependence to it to speak and to socialise and then later a full blown addiction. Now I'm at a point in my life where alcohol is having a severely adverse impact on me and the people around me, when I drink I can't just stop at one or even 10, I drink until I pass out or run out of money, I do stupid things that I would never normally do and recently decided to drink drive, I experience blackouts as a rule every time I drink leading to anxiety about what I did the night before. I have come to the conclusion that alcohol is the major contributing factor in my life that is causing me harm both psychically and mentally, however and here is my dilemma without alcohol I would not be able to socialise which means I would be going back to being by myself, trapped in my head with no one to talk to. I also don't see myself finding a girlfriend without the aid of alcohol, but I realise building a relationship off of alcohol is only going to end in tears. I'm truly at a impass and have to decide if I let alcohol keep destroying me or give it up and go back to isolation. Any thoughts or advice on others dealing with a similar situation would be hugely appreciated, cheers.