I'm 38 years old, father of two. I still stutter when meeting new people. Just today I was having an almost successful convo until he asked my name. I couldn't and went on a Rr. Rr aa. Aa stuttering spree. I feel so sick, so embarrassed, my self esteem and confidence hit rock bottom. Almost suicidal and dejected. Hiding my face in sand. All your practice is no use because once you talk to someone it's a totally different game, like Mike Tyson says, everything changes once you get punched. I panic, and I don't know why I'm in a haste to reply and I feel i give too much of respect to people when talking. I realized when you act a little bossy and arrogant and take your time to reply you tend to speak better. You come across as someone cold and unapproachable but you won't die with embarrassment at least like how I feel now.