Hey, I think I came across as looking for a cure to the stutter which isn't my aim, I know that will never, ever happen. My aim is to cure my anxiety because although it's natural to feel nervous and shy at times in certain situations, it's not natural to feel the way I do. I love this reply and everything you say is what I tell myself daily. I think to myself 'fuck it, why the fuck do I care about what these people think of me' but then as soon as the anxiety hits I feel it like a wave from top to bottom. My head pulses very gently inside and then my shoulders tense, I feel my throat get tight (massively impacts the stutter) my shoulders lift, my hands don't know what to do with themselves and my mind races. I'm at a stage where I recognise I'm feeling anxiety now and I make a huge effort to calm myself down and control it. Problem is, it's physically impossible to control and I'm a stage where something needs to give and I don't want to die, I just wanna be 'normal'. As time passes though, I really don't know how much longer I can carry on with it which is why I'm considering professional help. Obviously, the issue is a chemical inbalance in the brain for both anxiety and depression, meaning no amount of me trying to big myself up and just be a man is going to change that. I know you're trying to help and I appreciate that so much. It's just not possible to 'try not to worry about what others think' etc. I was hoping to hear from people who have experienced the same feelings as me and who ended up on medication and was then able to recover. -The stutter definitely doesn't help at all, but my main issue right not is what's going on in my head. If I can sort that out, I'll work on therapy again when I'm not feeling that anxiety. Thanks again, Brad.