That sucks, don’t loose hope. Everyone is beautiful and worth everything with any disability. I grew up stuttering in a post communist environment, everyone told me I will fail, during internship everyone told me a job will not work with stuttering, in school, no-one believed me I will make through college, I’m a waste of resources and what not. My parents wanted for me to start a job at the railway that didn’t require speaking. I’m now in the US, have a PhD, and data science lead in the big 4. I didn’t make it because of me being strong or practicing or techniques. I made it through people with whom I connected with. No one gets anywhere without good people that help you. When your environment pushes you down, change the environment. When your parents don’t understand you, understand them and forgive them. Don’t loose hope! Hurting yourself only hurts one person, yourself, don’t let the beauty that you can discover go.