commentr/StutterDecember 7, 2016

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1) I'm not really sure. Most of the time I'm covert, but it depends who I'm with. 2) It varies. I'd say about a 2 or 3, rising to a 6 when I'm in a situation I'm more likely to stutter in. 3) Weirdly, I seem to stutter most around my SO. I find it extremely frustrating. Also if I'm one on one with a close friend, I'm more likely to. Being tired or stressed makes it worse, too. A lot of the time I don't even notice my stuttering, which is nice, but if I do begin to notice, I get incredibly frustrated and angry with myself. There's this ugly sound coming out my mouth while I'm just trying to talk. For some reason, singing seems to make me more likely to stutter afterwards. 4) Ws and Ys are the worst. Fs are pretty bad a well. Then vowel sounds. 5) I don't really get scared. I suppose I'm scared it'll get worse. That my bad days will become the new normal. 6) I used to be, but not anymore. Stuttering on the phone is rarely if ever a problem for me. 7) It's only mild, but when I start to notice it, it gets worse. I get caught in this cycle of anger and shame. Eventually I'll just look at whoever I'm talking to in silence like, 'Well that was a train wreck' and try again after a minute or so.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceCauses & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceSpeech & Stuttering

Subthemes

Hiding & ConcealmentSeverity & FluctuationFrustration & AngerShame & EmbarrassmentRepetitions & Prolongations

Codes (3)

socializing_one_on_oneemotional_statephysical_state