commentr/StutterFebruary 20, 2014

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I don't know of this well help: I'm 21, a senior in college, and I've had a mild stutter my whole life. My worst years were probably my preteen years. In high school I rarely stuttered (in fact I thought I had "outgrown it"). I was active in school - openly talked in class without a second thought, and I took major roles in musical theater productions. I'm also a musician - played shows without a tinge of nervousness. Then college hit. I don't know what it was, but I became so nervous around new people, but really only in a classroom setting. (I was also going through a string if unfortunate personal events. )Having to speak in class became a nightmare. I hated going class out of fear of having to open my mouth and fumble around with my broken speech. One on one conversations I'm usually fine - but speaking in front of a group of people mortified me. The feeling, that I'm sure everyone here knows, of knowing precisely what you want to say but being unable for no clear reason. In fact, just today I had to give a presentation in front of the class about a paper I wrote. Trying to say "radical republican opposition" blew my cover as a totally fluent speaker. But what I'm trying to get at is that I never stutter now unless I'm I front of a group of people or I'm overwhelming nervous (and usually because if my own doing). I will worry incessantly before speaking, thinking "Fuck. Fuck. I'm going stutter. Don't stutter." But if I managed to not worry about the event of speaking (I know, easier said that done) then I am much less likely to stutter. If I try to lessen the emotion involved by caring less about what anyone thinks I'm way better off. TL;DR Mt case isn't as sever as most, but it was earlier in life. I've managed to get a better grasp on my situational stuttering if I don't dramatize the event of speaking by worrying excessively and damning myself to stutter hell.

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Emotional ExperienceCauses & VariabilityAnticipation & Avoidance

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Anxiety & Social JudgmentSeverity & FluctuationAvoidance & Substitution

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public_speakingemotional_state