I'm 35 and I've been stuttering for as long as i can remember. My shame has turned into more embarrassment over the years, but it still stings and I still get nervous and the whole vicious cycle starts again. I know what you're feeling. The day-to-day frustration and it sucks when you're older. I listen to a lot to positive affirming guided meditation. It took a long time but after awhile, you will learn to be more calm and serene in your head, and yeah you will stumble but you just have to keep thinking positive as cliche as that sounds. My whole take on stuttering is we make it worse because we get nervous and hopeless and the more that we get pulled down by our depression, the worse our stutter becomes. So, to combat this, I feel like we all have to learn what real calm and serenity is. Because let's face it. as stutterers, we're always in a state of extreme anxiety, whether it's at work, or at the supermarket trying to ask someone where the milk is. We are afraid of certain vowels and consonants and have become walking thesauruses. Check out youtube and just search for "guided meditation for anxiety." There's a guided meditation for everything. It's actually the first thing i pop on when i wake up in the morning so as to start my day right. And right before I go to bed, I put on headphones and listen to a guided meditation for sleeping as well. Again, it sucks but there is hope. There's always hope. And it starts with believing that there is actual hope out there and once you can grip onto that, your hope will slowly grow and flourish. Good luck to all of you.