Listen brother, YOU are NOT broken. Nobody is broken. Also, you are not a pussy or a coward, or whatever negative thought you have that says that you are less than anybody else. Matter of fact, you sound very, very brave and strong. You are still going strong, doing everyday life while feeling like you feel. Do you know how fucking strong and brave you gotta be to do that? And here you are doing exactly that! It doesn’t matter if you say that it is because of your family, YOU are the one that constantly shows up, YOU are the one that keeps on going day in, day out, and trust me, it WILL get better. You WILL feel better and you WILL return to happiness. I know (more than you think) how it doesn’t feel like things will ever get better, but they will. I know how hard it is to expose yourself, to have to talk to strangers, but it WILL get better, I promise you it will. You are so, so strong, way stronger than you think you are. Do this for yourself and for no one else. I heard this great quote once: “if you’re scared to do it, do it scared”. That quote has helped me (and still is) to overcome my biggest fears. You are no less of a human than I am and I know that you can get through this, you can, you can, you can. You are so strong and brave brother and I am so proud of you. ❤️