stuttering sure has made me hate everyone around me ,even my own family sometimes because no one understands me. Until you find the person that you like and likes you , you dont want anything to do with society.I relate to you , because i used to be like you, indiferent to everything around me and minding my own business , untill one day i unfortunately or fortunately(depends how you see it) fell in love with a girl and made me want to change , be part of society just to be with her. can say i didnt succed though and i only got depressed . love is a double edged sword . it maybe is better to be alone if that makes you happy . In the end the positive effects i got from trying to be part of society is taking better care of myself,started working out to attract the opposite gender witch ended up becoming my hobby and maybe learned some social skills. But all that in the expension of my mental health which has been constantly decreasing.