I don’t think you have to be rid of stuttering to have a good life, but I can imagine at 14 it’s just freaking painful and you’re tired. Way to choose another angle and give yourself a break. One day at time. Most stutterers are stutterers for life. It’s not always predictable and it’s situational so can make us feel crazy with why it starts and stops. Totally normal. I’m writing this here to dispel myths on stiluttering and empower all of us. I don’t stutter with the same frequency but I still have situations where I can feel stuck, that speech isn’t “easy” and reminds me to accept and teach that I stutter and/or find a way to remind myself that speaking with others is a rewarding experience and that I can stutterer in my way, my terms, bring in ease. I do hope you check out SLp Stephens page online and on IG as a starter. It may or not be exactly your thing, but there is a lot of free info and he’s got tons of experience treating stuttering and is also a stutterer himself. His reels are good. The emotions of stuttering are a major part of this. They are deep, complex and below the surface. You already have a spine. You’ve had to deal with this challenge likely most of your life. That puts you on a different level of understanding of communication challenges than most of your peers. It grants you a wisdom you maybe wish you didn’t have but nonetheless, that wisdom can fuel You to connect with others in deeper ways. Some stutterers actually don’t want to change their stutter. They find their stuttering to not be something “wrong” but to be a difference that often shows how the world reacts the “wrong” way to differences. Just wanted to point out there are many perspectives and in your education process, you may find knowledge empowering as you learn about yourself and what makes you, you. It’s easy to hate what I don’t understand about myself. It’s easy to hate what makes me different. Yet the very thing that makes me different is also an opportunity to model how I’ve accepted myself. The strongest, most interesting ppl I know are those that are able to share their vulnerability and how it has shaped them and their understanding of the world. You are on the right track. Thanks for sharing on here.