Ending your life is not going to take you anywhere in a world packed with countless of opportunities,love and hope. Whenever you think of ending your life, think of tomorrow as a new start, A reincarnation. Sounds unrealistic, because every dream at first Is just a DREAM until u day after day,step by step walk yourself to position where u can be happy of yourself. This may be a long journey but something that those who manage to perform never regret. Some people live their whole lifes in peace and joy but die at unfortunately die at 26 while others suffer in war,depression and chaos but finally find peace and happiness at 26 and continue to live on as if the concept of a religious paradise was real. THE FIRST STEP STARTS HERE. And if u ever get stuck in the process Dont hesistate to yet again reach out to people,reddit,professionals or friends because those will be undoubtly made as long as u keep striving. I truly from the bottom of my heart believe in YOU. Because u are not the only one in war right now, what you are going through is what other people have gone through, and that is proof that you are greater and more capable then what you or others may EVER THINK.