This is an excellent response. I agree with everything and I feel like I have a lot in common with your situation and how you view your stuttering. I have actually started meditating a little bit on my own (do you have any videos you can send me on which guided meditations you use?). I guess my big question is getting over my fear. Consciously, I am pretty good. Ive never been a covert stutter, I always stutter openly and know I'm likely so stutter so there no reason to try to hide or stress over it more than I need to. I know it doesn't define me and negative people don't even phase me. But on the inside, the parts I not only can't seem to control but also have a very hard time understanding and deciphering, those demons still control me. Despite my best efforts to resolve them and explore and illuminate the fears, it hasn't been very successful. Any advice for how to overcome the fear/shame/self consciousness that seems to control me (us) from the pit of our being?