Im so sorry you are feeling this way. I used to feel that way too, after i graduated highschool. I used to feel its better to die, i would hope i go to bed and not wake up the next morning and wont ever have to speak again. I know everyone says you are more than your stutter. But sometimes these words they dont help. But trust me as someone who felt that way, it does get better. And you are just a little different, little special than everyone else. You take time to speak, because you have so much to say! Not being fluent and having a stutter doesn’t take away how smart and kind and compassionate a person can be. Im sorry if i said something wrong. Wishing you all the best, it does get better :)