I feel you on this one! I am someone who sometimes stutters saying my own name. Uuuggghhhh It can be so discouraging and disappointing at the same time. However, when I was in college I was able to get a job in retail at the local mall and worked there until I graduated. I went to the interview looking really stylist bubbly personality helped me get the job. Build up your confidence, get some sharp looking work clothes, keep applying to positions and you will get a job! I believe in God and at times my faith does drop...a whole lot, but I get up again the next day and read the Bible, pray, listen to sermons, go to church, and it does build up my faith again. It's the fuel that keeps me going and hoping that God has a better plan than what I can imagine for myself. I try to focus less on me and more on Him. I hope this helps.