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36M here who has had a moderate stutter as long as I can remember. My main struggle is with blocking on sounds and words and it can be dehabilitating at times. Despite that, I have managed to graduate from a top tier public school in NY where I had a very large social circle of both men and women. I worked as a DJ there, met my wife there, and put myself out there in many ways. My business major involved me in alot of groups and I had probably 50 or so presentations. I don't recall stumbling during them even though I know for certain I did have some blocking at times. I do remember one very severe blocking episode during my senior year, but only because it resembled a panic attack and my heart rate was very elevated . Landing a job after college was more difficult especially with the recession still looming during 2010. It took me a year to land a small job which led me to another job a year later which I am still at now. I've worked my way up from assisting the chief of operations to now working in a senior level management position. My company is a niche civil and mechanical contractor in NYC. I am on the phone constantly, I have meetings weekly, and I lead teams of people. I have to have pleasant conversations and not so pleasenet conversations, and speaking is a big part of my life there. I make very decent money while also living in a hcol area outside NYC. I have 2 great kids, and am very happy with life right now. My oldest is 4 and he seems to be developing some disfluency; I am nervous for him but will give him any support he needs. Also randomly, I had an annual checkup a few years back and the doctor who checked me out had a moderate to severe stutter. It impressed me and further highlighted what is achievable. Overall life hasn't been easy, I have missed out on opportunities from fear of failure, I have had stumblings where people judged me, i have better speaking performances and much worse ones. And fluency for me comes in waves, right now I'm in a not so great fluency cycle. Because of my stutter I find that I am more empathetic towards others, I do a better job at listening and have a deep desire to understand the human condition. My humor is wit based and cutting, I am not a good story-teller, and I won't talk your ear off. This, and having common interests with people has led to a handful of lasting friendships. If you have any questions of concerns feel free to reach out, and best of luck with your journey!