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Last paragraph is my main point. (er, 2nd to last I guess) I love this comment, but also kinda hate it. I read a lot of your other responses to these replies and the conversations going on and I agree mostly with the others but also a lot with you. For me, I generally don't speak much in groups, cause I've been sorta conditioned to let myself get interrupted and talked over, unrelated to my stutter. Then introductions I try to avoid, I often stutter on my own name so that's unfortunate. Rambling. One on one, I'll talk all day every day and I love it, small group, much the same. More than four is when I quiet up cause someone else will always have something to say, and when I begin during a pause, I generally have mostly silent or jsut quiet blocks, and by the time either go through it or pause and start again the right way, my moment is gone. That goes back to what the other guy said with joke timing, I can often get out puns or snappy comments, but nothing more than a couple words. I've worked really hard with being who I want to be despite my stutter, but holy shit does it still hold me tf back. I love my broadcasting class, but I can't be talent because I'd waste everyone's time with my blocks, doing retales, or the editor trying to work with it. I'd love to be in the Mr. (insert high school) paegent (Idk spelling), but Idk anyone else in it that stutters and I've gotten enough of "the look" when I meet someone new that speaking in front of so many for it would make me feel beyond atrocious. This is primarily a big deal for me because yeah I'm still 17, a senior in my high school, so this matters to me. Idk of I'm wasting my time here, but essentially, what I think I'm trying to say is something like, despite my efforts in speech therapy and being more outgoing, NY stutter still holds me back because I know the social consequences it will get me. Be it personal embassment or annoying others in some way shape or form. Sorry if this made no sense man, it's late and I'm tired. Just wanted to say something, get it out there ya know? I'm open for discussion and glad to be proven wrong.