Bro I know EXACTLY how you feel. 30 male and I've had a stutter ever since I could remember. I've been battling depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 19. It all started after I dropped out of college. Watching all my peers graduate and succeed made me envious of them and distance myself because I felt I wasn't good enough. Haven't dated in nearly a decade although I'm longing for a companion there's so many mental barriers impeding self progress.