commentr/StutterJune 10, 2014

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Klonopin. Klonopin gave me confidence, although a false sense of it, still confidence. It showed me what I could be if I accepted my stutter, and just began expressing myself. I watched all of these things occur while I was under the influence of klonopin, and I realized I wasn't ugly, I wasnt awkward, but instead actually attractive and a great conversationalist but just hadnt seen confirmation. Klonopin gave me confirmation in my self, and instilled confidence. I was only taking.5 mg but it was all I needed. Some days I would take 1 full mg if I felt like there would be a lot of talking that day, but never more. I wouldnt take it every day either, as it has a long half life and I wanted to prevent the possibility of withdrawal. I am not a severe stutterer, so on klonopin you wouldnt even be able to tell I was a stutterer unless you your self were. Noiw that I am off of it, it is a little more overt, but not something I let bother me. If I ever let it bother me, I think about how I MYSELF changed my life this last year.

Themes

Meds & SubstancesIdentity & DisabilityEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Helpful Med OutcomesIdentity & Self-PerceptionHope & Motivation

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benzodiazepines_anxiolytics