I don't know how to put this exactly but I'll try. I know that it's nobody's fault (least of all mine) and people don't really care but I just cannot come to terms with it when I actually stutter. I feel ashamed and go red almost always even though I KNOW there is no reason for me to. I've no idea why this happens, I've never been able to rationalise it away. Maybe it's because I'm a bit of a perfectionist and having Asian parents who've always stressed on being the best at whatever is part of the problem. (There I go blaming my parents again when I KNOW I shouldn't)