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I think on the one hand we do feel the connection with our nerves and fears and can probably say something a thousand times over in one space or in the shower but pulling up to a restaurant having to say the order and there it flares up. On the other hand people may be talking just fine and it seemingly randomly appears and so it begins. That is the example that throws us off into wondering how that moment in time played any roll with our social rejection fears because we were already talking just fine with them. So, depending on the situation, it brings up the bird or the egg debate within us wondering if it's the stutter that causes the fear or the fear that causes the stutter. I personally think the connection is too vivid to just whisk away but I wonder if there is a common thread that nerves bring about but something else can also bring about. So a question I'd have is, is there another situation where something throws us off as we talk and causes a stutter but we were not nervous. This one is tricky. I remember being surprised the first time I stuttered reading out loud at all by myself at home but it was so easy to continue on. It was just a passing curiosity. I am sure nerves would have exacerbated it and then the question would be, did I have any memory or anything attached to that stutter that brought about nerves that I didn't realize. Maybe as I talked, I began envisioning being somewhere else and that brought it up, like how we may stutter recording ourselves on youtube or to someone, even though alone, just knowing or imagining someone else can hear. I don't think that was the case honestly though, and I found it so fascinating how easy it was to move on like the stutter never happened during that time.