That doesnt sound like my experience. Like most apathetic individuals listlessly going through the motion of the dreary day to day. Woe is me for my own ineptitude, knowing my own limitations and painfully aware that what I've been alotted is all that I can expect to achieve. Acceptance and self-pity. The fulfillment of life is in death, but whether I suffer more here or in the hereafter is unknown...thus I bide my time with the devil known.