I held a discussion for an hour today

I held a discussion for an hour today I was so goddamn nervous, it started at monday. You know the brief feeling you have when you forget the thing you were nervous about, like "oh wasn't I supposed to be anxious about something? OH SHIT fuck" then your gut just sinks. I had emailed my professor about maybe doing this public speaking part of my essay in writing form instead because of my stutter and social anxiety. She was really great, she said that it was possible but that she herself has had problems with the same thing before, about being nervous before public speaking and that she wanted me instead to see this as an opportunity to challenge myself, and so I did. I had to review another students essay, give feedback and hold the discussion for about an hour and I was so nervous. I thought the best thing I could do was just tell the people that were there that I stutter, which I did. It kind of took much of the tension away, there was nothing hidden anymore. Anyways, it went absolutely fantastic by my standards. Both the student and my professor thanked me for my contribution and my own essay was also approved which means that I now have a degree in religious studies! It feels really amazing, but I cant really grasp it thus far. I think I have trouble giving myself credit for things. Anyways just wanted to share an achievement I made today that I felt proud about.