Hey man. I really relate to what you're saying. I'm also from the UK and I'm 24 and it is just bloody hard. Something that gets me through the day a lot is just remembering that no one actually gives a shit about your stutter. People are so self absorbed so I try not to let events and times when I really struggled get to me. Definitely doesn't work all the time though. I still contemplate suicide now and again and I don't think I'll ever truly be happy for the rest of my life. Which is sad because it's something that isn't even my fault. What you can do is try to make your life better for yourself. Have you considered any jobs where you won't need to talk much? There aren't many out there granted but there will definitely be something that suits you perfectly. I got my job by saying I had a stutter and while it's a talk heavy job I'd never want to change. In terms of dating have you tried dating apps? Really good to talk properly for a while on these apps first so you can get a connection cos there's no way in hell I could just talk to someone in a bar or something. Best of luck.