Hey, I’m sorry to hear you’re having a tough time at the moment. What you’re dealing with right now must be really difficult. But please don’t do anything rash, I no it doesn’t seem like it at the moment but things do get better. You will find your place, and strategies to deal with your stutter. In the mean time, I hope that you’ll tell someone about how you’re feeling right now, and that you’ve had such dark thoughts - whether it be a family member, friend or someone else you trust. Please believe that no matter what difficulties you’re going through right now you have value as a person, and you are valued. I’m sure we on here are always happy to talk to you, and the good folks over at /r/suicidewatch are amazing at helping out too.