Bro ur stressed and clearly have alot on ur plate. Whenever I fell into a whole where I lacked confidence in one area, it bled over. Ull be fine. Calmn down. Head over to subs that help u understand your nervous system. For a general understanding Huberman Labs podcast on the nervous system and stress is good. It also has actionable tools. Also, the gym is one if not the only times I feel so fatigued that I feel like my stutter is going to hit me back. Doesn't happen, but the truth is that if u have an overloaded NS, even most normal people fall into speech impediments. Sleep is my biggest advice. Get sleep. And smoke weed, but like as a medicine, not as a way to sit and think and make things worse. Also, maybe get ur blood work done. If your low any major nutrients, having nerve or NS related inefficiencies just increase in magnitude. All love Fellow herb lover.