When I’m talking to my wife, it’s not always there. It does get worse when I’m excited and want to tell something. When I’m talking to our daughter of 2 yo oe ranking to the dog, it’s non-existent. I have been taught to do everything perfect (my speech isn’t) and when I was young, I had to go to speech therapy because there was something wrong with me. I think deep down that had made things actually worse because I started to believe I shouldn’t speak differently than others. With the intensification of my stuttering the anxiety also worsened, which makes me stuttering more of course. And since I’m trying to leave out the tricks it takes way longer to get through a sentence. This circle I’m in and the complete loss of accepting myself is quite hard.