Immense Anger towards it All (Covert Stuttering/Rant)

Immense Anger towards it All (Covert Stuttering/Rant) I am a covert stutterer....kinda. I would classify myself as semi-covert in that I no longer use any techniques, substitutions, or secondaries such as finger tapping to force my words out, however i do avoid speaking, and try to pass as if nothing is happening when I block. I am typing this because I am in my Junior year of college going for an Information/Computer Science Degree at a prestigious university and I am tired of how impatient and fake people are. One thing you realize as a person with a stutter is how little you would truly know about the nature and temperament of people if you were perfectly fluent and popular. How people act when you stutter can be great insight into their character, and so far I have been dissapointed about 80% of the time. I truly believe that stuttering has made us who stutter more empathetic and understanding, but to me all this extra sensitivity and kindness I display leaves me feeling hurt when I see how callous others can be. I AM DONE WITH THIS. I laid in my bed today searching online for hours for things I could do to help myself with my stuttering and the down moods and finally thought about all of this and reached the conclusion that other people show their ugly side every day. It manifests itself in every laugh, every impatient glare, every attempt to cut you short, every rejected job interview. So, people show this ugliness in themselves everyday and yet WE have to hide our stutter!? FOR WHAT? To make those insensitive pricks comfortable? To make it so that their precious time isn't wasted? Because their worth so much more than you or I? Why should we feel anxious, depressed and wronged for something that is just how we communicate naturally when people perform insensitive acts daily that they could control if they tried? Why are WE ashamed of how we talk? Why arnt THEY ashamed about how they react to us? I am tired of it, not going to stand for it. I want to be an overt stutterer, I want to teach these people some patience, I want to just communicate without worirrying about how comfortable everyone else is, because obviously when we talk most people don't care about how they make use feel.