I wish stuttering was my biggest problem again.

I wish stuttering was my biggest problem again. I remember being 10 years old, crying a lot because I didn't speak like the rest. I wouldn't want to attend classes nor open my mouth lots of times. Speech therapy helped two years later and later on I managed to embrace it. Asked myself: "Well, if it can't be fixed, what am I gonna do other than accepting it?" And now, as I'm growing older (though I'm only 17 right now) I've started to notice scarier things. It's like, I wish I could stay in my teens forever. Adulthood scares me like shit. Of course stuttering keeps being a problem. But damn, all those years of my youth lost not only because my stutter, but also because of my emotional trauma, my social anxiety and my depression... Lots of things I've missed just for being unlucky due to the live I lived. Now I have to go to therapy and wish for things to get better. Uni is right around the corner too. I never learned to make friends. The thought of growing older without anyone beside you that loves you is concerning. I don't even know what my job will be, which people will want to know me and how will my mental state be in a year from now. Probably the same, because when I was 10 I used to rot in my bed. Being 17 now, that still hasn't changed. I'm very afraid.