I was in same situation as you are now. I have stutter my whole life. I have a problem that i want to treat it, i had some moments when i self motivated my self but now while i want to practice, something pulls me away from it. My worst story with stutter began when i was in 4th grade of elementary school. I had some friends, still i was shy. I don't know how but i was 2 times in relationship with 2 different girls (not in same time), but my stutter seemed to not bother them. When i was in relationship, i realised that stutter is only my barrier, and it shouldn't control my life. Of course it was annoying because it was hard for me to answer in school, everyone used to laugh at me and it really hurts. As years passed, in 5th grade everyone called me stutterer everytime. This thing was one of main reasons why i was lonely like you. I want you to realise that stutter is only your barrier. Live your life, spend time with real friends who understand your stutter and take it seriously.