You made bold moves even with your anxiety and that's good. I used to have anxiety and I know how it isn't all about pushing yourself sometimes and it's an auto-response, that's all fine. I want you to do something for me bro, get a paper notepad and pen and while at work write down what's happening around you, your perception of it and then start questioning those perceptions. You literally have to doubt your doubts. More points if you can write your good qualities. Tip: Make a made-up language or shorthand only you understand. Edit: Corrected grammar.